5 More Years Til 30

Today is my 25 birthday! And boy these past couple of years my life has definately changed. I've done some pretty stupid things, grown as a person, met some new people and lost some people as well.

I have really enjoyed spending this day with people such as Jace, Jinx, Daniel, Chester, Mike, George and Meredith. You all mean so much to me!

Not much else to say except I have eaten way to much sweets today! :D

-T

Meet Daniel

Life has been pretty hectic. And no, I'm not talking of my personal life or my jedi life. Every single bit of it. I've been spending time taking care of Draven every chance I get. Jace graduated from his college in January but has not yet started looking for a job as a teacher. Anyway, back to the story. I finally finished a report for tomorrow's class. I moan running my fingers through my hair. "I can't keep doing this on my own." The library might as well be deserted by now. "I know." Obi-Wan says scaring me half to death. "The council thought you could handle not having a master on your own but it seems to be pretty damn crazy for you lately." I can't help but smile at the curse word that came from out of his mouth. "So whats your point?" I ask setting my pencil down. "We are getting you a new master." He says. I let out a sigh. "I'm sorry but I think it would be pretty hard to have a master other than Justi." "Let me get this straight, instead of having someone there to guide you, you want to keep breaking your back trying to do this all on your own with no help." I shake my head now. "No." "In that case," A tall man with thick black hair and a mustache stepped into the room. "Tash this is Daniel Plentel, he is now your jedi master." I stand shaking the man's hand. "Tash Musta. I am pleased to meet you." "Same to you. I apologize but it's about time you move out of your old quarters with George and Meredith." Daniel tells me. I nod my head. Honestly, George and Meredith were part of the reason for my stress. With taking care of the baby and everything it was hard to come home to them biggering at each other about the stupid things. Heck, we haven't even been hanging out together lately. If I wanted to see anyone other than Jace I would go see Mike, Chester or Jinx most of the time. "Your things were already moved to the newest quarters, I hope you don't mind." Obi-Wan adds. Again I nod my head. I was left without words to say. "Well, I guess we'll just be on our way now. Thank you Master Kenobi." Daniel smiles leading me out of the library. "Thanks." I mumble. 'Til Later Tash Moonwalker

Be Shocked

Wow, I can't believe Draven has been in this world for almost four months! Life has been pretty freaking insane and I haven't been doing jedi work for a little while now. Nothing very drastic has happened to me lately except the fact that Chester broke his wrist. So, really the only reason I'm posting right now is to late you all know that I'm still alive. Sadly, I have nothing else to really say. At least I'm getting a post in here and there. Tash Moonwalker

Take Me Home

They're finally letting me go home along with the baby! Well, Jace is finally getting used to avoiding his hospitalphobia but when we all finally got home the first thing he did was sit down on the couch. I had to order him to go get Draven a bottle first. Meanwhile I was rushing to go get my big bag from the baby shower. I walk into the living room with it. "Well, the crib is currently sitting in our room but we have to get all this stuff in his room." I tell Jace as he craddles the baby in his arms along with his bottle. * * * So, we went through all Draven's things and decorated the whole room in a few hours. Yes, we're now home. Well, I'm taking a whole bunch of time off from Jedi Work because they don't need me. Stress is an enemy, I scared it away. -Tash

Click, Click, Click... BOOM!

Finally! I felt at least a little bit of clarity. Belda was fine in her new dorm (long story), I told the medical bay about Talinda and not the baby, Jace was around more than usual lately. Anyway, yeah this is urgent and you're lucky I'm posting. I slowly and nervously walk my way out of the bathroom of Jay's apartment. Hey, its Thursday night I get to leave the temple thankfully. I breathe in hard standing in front of Jace. "Hun, I think its time for the baby." I say placing my hand over his breathing hard again. His mouth drops halfway open. "Oh my God.... Don't worry love come on." Jace says half rushing half trying to be calm... He wasn't either and he knew it. Oh yeah, by the time we got into the speeder, I wanted to scream my guts out. How could the baby already be coming? I was told December 12th was the due date... Not now. Here. * * * My brow is wet from exhaustion. But, I had baby Draven Jason Moonwalker in my arms. Born November 29th, 2007 at 11:55 PM. He was safe and in this world and that was all that mattered to me now. God, poor Jace. How could they kick him out of the room during his son's own birth? No wonder he almost sufficated when he finally got to hold him. Anyway, yeah whoa. I finally have a son! Credit to Jace for letting me use his laptop for a couple minutes to post this. Draven is in the nursery right now getting sleep. I wonder who needs it more, me, Jace or the baby? Well, please read this post from Jace's point of view in a moment. 'Til Later Tash Moonwalker *WELCOME DRAVEN JASON MY SON!*

The Anniversary!

Happy Anniversary to me and Jace! Its hard to believe that I have now been Mrs. Moonwalker for a year! I'm sure that Jace will be a way better parent than I am. Life wouldn't be as good without you. Anyway, I just wanted to let you all know that today last year I was getting married. Later Tash Moonwalker

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN GUYS! I apologize for the lack of updates. Life has been VERY crazy lately. I will finish the story later. :) On another note, Jace and I's anniversary is in three days so please try to 'leave me alone' on Saturday. So yeah I had a good time tonight. :) See you all who knows when. -Tash

Good Times Good Times

After hanging out with so many people that have been quite better lately I realized how much Belda's been here at the temple lately. We planned a time to chat and do some girl stuff. It was nice to talk to a jedi younger than I because everytime I talk to someone else I feel like their teaching me some lessons. But, with Belda we can tell each other things... I just never though it would go on like this. "Would you like to spend the night at my quarters? It would just be me, George and you Meredith isn't home." I ask Belda. "oh okies" Belda says. "Just lemme get my things." "AHHHH!" I hear her scream. I rush into her room concerned. "What happen?" "My things gone!" She cried. "What all did you need?" "A bed, my Guardian Bear, my chest of things my parents left me, my clothes- I embraced her into a hug as she broke into tears. "I'm sorry Belda." We gathered some people to try to find her things. Instead we found out that Belda was moved into a dorm with a few other Padawan. She was still said. "Cry you must not get attatched you will." Yoda tells Belda. "Leaver er alone!" I burst. What happened? Was this Talinda or me? "Sorry I didn't mean to say that!" I blab. "Tash come here!" Bariss orders. I sigh and walk toward her slowly. "Yes?" "Shaak Ti why dont you show Belda her new room I need to discuss something with Tash, I will be up there when I am done." Bariss says. Oh boy... Now Bariss and I are walking and talking. She seems different compared to the others. "Tash, why did you snap at Master Yoda like that?" She asks me. "I understand my mistake I promise it will never happen again... I was told we make our mistakes for a reason... The only reason they exist is just so we learn from them"

"this is true, but something like this isnt good for the younglings to be seeing..."

"Teach her a lesson I will" Yoda chimes in.

"Yes I know that now... and with all I've been trying to teach her tonight... shall I speak to her about how that was wrong? she actually seemed a tad curious about it" I say

"think what do you Windu?" Windu! I didn't even know he was here.

Well, Musta has learned from her mistake but I agree she does need to realize that Belda Pinik is a younger student and she needs to be set a good example. Master Windu tells.

"Punsisher her we should."

Well, that was coming from Yoda of course so nothing out of the ordinary. But, he was standing next to the man that wanted to save me from being emotionally scared for life when Meredith almost died. I had to suck it up and move on.

"I'll talk what ever punishment you give me sir." I say.

"Show to young Belda being bad is not good." Yoda continues.

I got that already!!!!

"I understand that sir... and I will apologize to her and you both." I tell.

Yoda turns his head to Master Windu.

He heaved out a sigh. "You go ahead and decide her punishment."

I could tell that Yoda suddenly didn't like punishment as much. "Write Ten holos of public apology or twenty whacks with cane?"

"What sort of public apology sir?"

" write 5 holos of what you did wrong and 5 holos of how sorry you are tomorrow morning before classes due it is"

I nod. "Yes sir."

Yoda looks back to Windu again.

Mace shrugs his shoulders. "Sounds necessary to me."

Now it was time to talk to Bariss. I felt pretty bad.

"Tash, be happy, most woulda taken the easy way out." She says in a really soothing tone.

"Thank you master." I'm still looking at my boots.

"You made a wise decision."

I finally look up at her. "I still feel guilty about it though."

"Do explain." She says wrapping an arm around my shoulder.

How? I can't say 'I have a killer alter ego and I'm not sure if that was her or me talking trash to ya'. Actually, I just had to.

"Its just... Happened I don't know how or why... And I have an evil alter ego and I'm not sure if that was her work or my own." I ramble.

"hmmm... When you are done with your assingment, stop by the healers area I want to have a look at that...."

Uh-oh what if they find out about my pregnancy? Well, there just might be a way to slip that by Bariss. I felt like I could trust her.

"Let me walk you to Belda's new room." Bariss says.

"Thank you." I say looking up into her eyes finally smiling.

TBC

'Til Who Knows When

Tash

Ug is the word of the day

I’m sitting in the cafeteria with all the guys. The girls didn’t bother getting up early this morning. Yes, we’re all in pajamas. It’s just me, George, Mike (new student now) and Chester (also new student). “Where’s Jay?” Mike asked me. “Most likely… sleeping.” I say. Knowing him he won’t have class until 9:30. “Lucky!” George says. “Georgie you are aware that if you didn’t agree to come this morning you could be in bed too?” Chester asks. I giggle. “Yeh….. No.” Says George as his face goes red. We all crack up. Hanging with all the guys was pretty good down time. I’ve been around many girls lately, I sorta needed a break. Besides Meredith and I had been going to the library, for four days last week. Yeah not very fun, after the first two days. “Hey uh… Tash?” Chester says under his breath. “Hmph?” I grunt. “I have a mission to go on in two months after my training, Mike and I don’t have a master yet- “So what are you saying?” I sneer. “Can you go with us for safety purposes?” Chester asks with a sly smile on his face. “Ug! ChazyChaz I told you that is month before she can’t do that!” “Guys I know what your saying and I just won’t be around I’ll have to get my own mission set up maybe see if Jay can come with me. Besides maybe Jinx could go she’s just as good as I am.” This makes Chester smile. “Fine but after that kid is born we’re all going on a mission!” Chester says sternly. I giggle. Man this will be weird year…

Back To Class

Class is back in session at the Jedi Temple. No more missions for a while. Its all study. Yep you heard right I have to sit on my butt in class along with Meredith, George, possibly Jinx when she returns and everyone else. I honestly think this'll help me for a while. After all this sadness I feel like my life has turned into a soap opera. I need the throw that away. Like I said not to long ago, every mission shall lead you to depression. So I get today and tomorrow off which is great. I feel like a regular student again. I'm sorry for the delays lately with posting but I have been a bit busy. I'll try to post more now that I won't be as busy aside from the studying and what not. Later Tash Musta

Back Home

It is so nice to be home! The atmosphere feels so much cleaner and healthier. I feel like anyone I know that I haven’t seen in a long time should be hugged. Anyway, I should be getting back to the story. I walk into my room and I see anyone who could make it standing right there in front of me. I see Jace, Chester, Mike, Belda, Liam, Meredith, George, Christina and Starz. I rush into each of their arms happily. Thank God they were all still alive. Jace hugs me again and I realize something, he’s crying. Everyone else is looking away trying to ignore what is happening in this moment of silence. “Everything is going to be okay.” I whisper into his ear. It seems to make him hold on tighter. I feel stupid saying those words because everything can change in a second. It’s hard to consider that a lie or the soon to be truth we can’t believe just yet. After a bit of a small party it was time for one of my favorite things to have, roommate time with Meredith and George. They have been going through the hardest time lately. Oh how I’d missed them so. Especially George because Jinx isn’t around and he’s pretty much the next best thing. George and I are sitting in the living room talking while Meredith gets some zzz’s. We do this way too much. “You seem….different.” George tells me. I knew that this mission had really changed my life. All I do is look into the fire and ignore his words. “I’m really sorry if all of this stuff going on is confusing you. All of you.” My eyes still not meeting his. Ever since the mission and what happened with Anakin/Vader I feel weird talking to anyone. This was just another habit to break. ‘Til Later Tash *Back Home!!!!*

The Little Things Give You Away

Finally, Anakin and I are getting to the equator of Meteora. Yet I realize something, there is no time hole. We're still going to be in the future. I didn't even know what it would be like.

The cockpit opens. I get out along with Anakin and look around. A piercing scream surges through my ears. I rush toward the pleads as quickly as I can. Anakin is trudging next to me.

It was wourse than I thought. This was almost just like the that woman told me about.

"We evacuated all of the children and elder before! I don't understand how they got back!" I shout over the noise.

"They must have been told about it and rushed toward Meteora to check on their loved ones that were left!" Anakin says.

I nod and run toward the first person I see. The wind begins to pick up just as I get to her side.

Anakin grabs my arm. "Tash its to dangerous we have to get out of here!"

"No I'll be okay." I tell him.

"Quick!"

"Excuse me miss where are you hu-

"TASH NOW!" He pulls me away faster and harder.

"NO!" I cry. "THESE PEOPLE NEED HELP YOU JUST DON'T GET IT VADER! YOU NEVER WILL! WE HAVE TO HELP THESE PEOPLE! IF YOU EVER LOVED ANY OF YOURS FRIENDS YOU WOULD HELP THEM! PLEASE!"

I begin feeling tears rush down my cheeks.

Anakin picks me up silently and sits me down in the speeder.

We're going to stop at a medical bay.

We sit outside and don't talk. I felt as if he was the same person I once knew. Before thinking about it I'm crying into his shoulder. Never had I seen him let anyone do that. It was a bit frightening.

"Come on we're gonna take you home." Anakin tells me in a deep voice.

"What?"

"You're gonna go back to Kashykk and you're going to go into that time hole and go back to Coruscant." He demands.

I get inside the speeder and listen. * * *

I'm walking back toward The Freedom Rider along with Anakin.

"Goodbye." I say looking down at my shoes refusing to meet his gaze.

"Bye." He says.

I give him a hug and get inside. It was finally time to go home.